Light Bulb Moments

Journal, one of many. At the rack's edge lies A memoir of the old days All but covered with dust Unsure when unfolded last Inside were like "intestine" Rose turned brown, flattened Pile of letters, now yellowish Fragments damaged by silverfish Tales divulged once again Absurdly recalling the pain Nevertheless, I smiled I learned being that wild - M

It is your ear that keeps your balance. I have to admit that last Friday’s topic is probably the highlight of my journal about last week. I am not totally deaf but I find it hard to hear what people say most of the time since third grade. I don’t know what happened then, I don’t know how it started, all I remember was the time when I started to struggle hearing voices and noise. And believe me, it’s embarrassing sometimes not to hear what the person I’m talking to is saying. I’ve been scolded too, many times, for not hearing something clearly. And do you know that feeling when you’re talking to the person who intimidates you the most and you can’t hear clearly what that person was saying? The truth is, it was last Friday' discussion that made me realized that it is our ears that keep our balance. It gives direction. And at some point I came to thinking that there was this one time when we were playing “open-basket” with my playmates then suddenly, I felt something blocking my e...

To provide knowledge, to provide skills. Last week, prior to the day when we’re supposed to display the bulletin, I was with my group mates. We were working on our designs and stuff and the idea amazed me. I found out that sometimes, it’s a good idea to hang out with the people you’re not close with. I really had fun that Sunday afternoon. I found out how good the feeling was being with the people who doesn’t know me that much, I got the feeling that I have power and control over my personal issues in life by simply keeping in mind that those people I was with for eight hours, knew nothing about the dramas and hang-ups in me. And of course, I get to mingle with them, found out stories and things I never heard of. For a person like me who isn’t that friendly, it was bliss. It was like having a life outside my relationship with my family and close friends. I did get the idea why we discussed first behavioral safety, to prepare ourselves for the possible relationships that we might be abl...

Wherever possible, students should be given choices and responsibility for their own education. – Elizabeth Schultz The truth is, last Monday I was so sleepy inside the classroom, actually, all of my classes that day. I was too drained with all the school stuff around the previous night. And I honestly felt guilty for not paying attention to the discussion. Most especially because the teacher told us (that same day) that when he is discussing, that when he is inside the classroom, he give his all. It made me feel guilty. So the next two meetings, I did try my best to go to school with a complete sleep. Friday, the volunteers discussed about their fire evacuation plan from where they live. And of course, there were a lot of funny stuff during the discussion and I did have fun that morning despite the fact that I wasn’t feeling well. There was this one volunteer whose evacuation area is along the road where the teacher said was the place where the fire trucks are expected to park in time...

A well-developed mind, a passion to learn, and the ability to put knowledge to work are the new keys to the future. It’s funny how I thought I saw myself among the people problems discussed – self conscious, tactless, martyr, procrastinator and some other traits. Behavioral safety, maybe a part where mostly people wouldn’t see the relevance of our behavior and our safety. But I guess it’s safe to say that I think, I did see its relevance. You know, that feeling how sometimes you kept blaming yourself for behaving so off after messing or screwing some things up. Our behavior defines mostly who we are and personally speaking, seeing myself on those people problem made me think about the times that I ran into several problems and how did I behave before, on and after. Way back in high school, I end up having a fight with one of my classmates because of my tactlessness, Our behavior really affects our environment and all the people that surround us but I know that being an open-minded pers...

Since the brain cannot pay attention to everything…uninteresting, boring or emotionally flat lessons simply will not be remembered. – Launa Ellison When we were asked to define safe and secure, even when the facilitator were just briefing us about what to expect about the subject, I felt so proud knowing that even before that day, I learned about its difference and I never forget. Some three years ago, I may not have remembered the exact words or the exact meaning, someone told me (during class discussions) about it, and it retained to my system after all these years, it was never hidden in the part of our brain where the things we’ve forgotten are kept. I don’t know if my classmates that time felt the same way, I never bother ask anyway. But what’s more interesting is that, that someone was actually the facilitator himself. During our first group activity, with me feeling so proud to remember a lesson way back, I didn’t hesitate telling my group mates the same example the facilitator ...