Light Bulb Moments

As you start to bloom in the smoky forest, thorns unexpectedly came from you at the same time. It was like the ones in roses. I never thought it was possible. How? I don’t know. What? Maybe I could give you answers to the puzzle that you, yourself created. Clearly, you aren’t capable yet of handling things like that. It takes a lot of wisdom to see things that are invisible. And I who thinks knows better needs a lot of courage and strength to be patient enough to understand and get this through. Violet, apparently your name and whatever it stands for is quite contradicting. And I have to admit that, that’s how I see you now, different – one element defining two symbols. Sweet creature, your innocence isn’t leading you right. Your poisonous thorns are giving you away. Darling, it’s eating you up through immaturity instead of growth. I may not be perfect but I’m honestly wishing I could give you the same nourishment I got when I was at your stage. I am hopelessly wishing I could make it ...

It is your ear that keeps your balance. I have to admit that last Friday’s topic is probably the highlight of my journal about last week. I am not totally deaf but I find it hard to hear what people say most of the time since third grade. I don’t know what happened then, I don’t know how it started, all I remember was the time when I started to struggle hearing voices and noise. And believe me, it’s embarrassing sometimes not to hear what the person I’m talking to is saying. I’ve been scolded too, many times, for not hearing something clearly. And do you know that feeling when you’re talking to the person who intimidates you the most and you can’t hear clearly what that person was saying? The truth is, it was last Friday' discussion that made me realized that it is our ears that keep our balance. It gives direction. And at some point I came to thinking that there was this one time when we were playing “open-basket” with my playmates then suddenly, I felt something blocking my e...

To provide knowledge, to provide skills. Last week, prior to the day when we’re supposed to display the bulletin, I was with my group mates. We were working on our designs and stuff and the idea amazed me. I found out that sometimes, it’s a good idea to hang out with the people you’re not close with. I really had fun that Sunday afternoon. I found out how good the feeling was being with the people who doesn’t know me that much, I got the feeling that I have power and control over my personal issues in life by simply keeping in mind that those people I was with for eight hours, knew nothing about the dramas and hang-ups in me. And of course, I get to mingle with them, found out stories and things I never heard of. For a person like me who isn’t that friendly, it was bliss. It was like having a life outside my relationship with my family and close friends. I did get the idea why we discussed first behavioral safety, to prepare ourselves for the possible relationships that we might be abl...

I have so many regrets in life, things I did that wish I could still undo. But I've learned so many things from those regrets, so I guess it is safe to say that even if I'd be given the chance to shake the sands of time backwards, I still wouldn't have it any other way. Because the best thing that could ever happen to a person's life is to experience something exquisite in a short span of time with the memories attached to it that will surely be treasured for the rest of his/her life. Live life believing that everything happens for a reason. And if sometimes, we don't understand that reason, have faith that God has the power to make our worst nightmares into a wonderful dream as much as He has the power to value our suffering with an everlasting  joy in our hearts. What matters most is the fact that we learn something in every hardship and burden that we encounter. - M

Wherever possible, students should be given choices and responsibility for their own education. – Elizabeth Schultz The truth is, last Monday I was so sleepy inside the classroom, actually, all of my classes that day. I was too drained with all the school stuff around the previous night. And I honestly felt guilty for not paying attention to the discussion. Most especially because the teacher told us (that same day) that when he is discussing, that when he is inside the classroom, he give his all. It made me feel guilty. So the next two meetings, I did try my best to go to school with a complete sleep. Friday, the volunteers discussed about their fire evacuation plan from where they live. And of course, there were a lot of funny stuff during the discussion and I did have fun that morning despite the fact that I wasn’t feeling well. There was this one volunteer whose evacuation area is along the road where the teacher said was the place where the fire trucks are expected to park in time...

I ain't dumb, not even numb. I believe, really do, 'have learned to let it go. Honey, I did walk out, 'cause you made me doubt. But you came back 'thought you wouldn't knock. Iopened the window, I broke the wall. 'made me your shadow, Then I began to fall. I may be your last resort but one thing's for sure, and for what it's worth, I won't leave, I'm sure. - M

A well-developed mind, a passion to learn, and the ability to put knowledge to work are the new keys to the future. It’s funny how I thought I saw myself among the people problems discussed – self conscious, tactless, martyr, procrastinator and some other traits. Behavioral safety, maybe a part where mostly people wouldn’t see the relevance of our behavior and our safety. But I guess it’s safe to say that I think, I did see its relevance. You know, that feeling how sometimes you kept blaming yourself for behaving so off after messing or screwing some things up. Our behavior defines mostly who we are and personally speaking, seeing myself on those people problem made me think about the times that I ran into several problems and how did I behave before, on and after. Way back in high school, I end up having a fight with one of my classmates because of my tactlessness, Our behavior really affects our environment and all the people that surround us but I know that being an open-minded pers...